Emotional Rollercoasters

In preparation for getting married, I started back on birth control. And now I remember why I quit it the first time. I'm not generally an emotional person. But these crazy estrogen pills make me feel triple the emotions that I would normally feel!! When I'm happy, I'm so giddy that I am bouncing off the walls. When I'm sad, I am crying my eyes out. And when I am frustrated, I am IRATE. And granted, this is only the low-hormone kind. I just don't know what to do when I feel emotional ...it's so foreign to me.

For example, yesterday was a very trying day on my emotions. First off, O'Keefe ticked off everyone in my Campaigns class. He told us that we were all bringing in crap, and we were wasting our time (when, he doesn't even come to class because he gets a phone call ...but who am I to judge?). So then I had some errands to run, and I was still all wound up from class. So I decided to let myself relax a little and make a nice lunch before I went to painting. While I was in the middle of cooking, the fire alarm went off. And our phase manager was gone, so there was no one here to turn it off. I got VERY angered by this intrusion on my personal time. So I tried to relax and eat outside until the alarm stopped so I could eat in some semblance of peace. But then everyone else was outside their apartments, and they kept talking to me. This was Terra-needs-to-calm-down personal time, remember? So I got angered some more. Then, when I was coming in to clean off the pan from my lunch, I hit my knee on the corner of my coffee table. It hurt (and the old Terra would just say "ouch" and move on, but not the new, crazy Terra). I started crying. I was tired of not getting to see Brent, frustrated with classes, mad at the fire alarm, mad at the girl upstairs who can't use a microwave well enough to NOT set off the fire alarm, mad that I hit my knee on the table, and I just plain felt like crying. So I cried. and cried. And cried so hard I gave myself a migraine. haha. So I skipped painting and took a nap instead. I felt that I needed it.

I've obviously gone crazy. If this is how the rest of woman-kind feels on a day-to-day basis, I take back all the mean comments I've made about how flighty and hormonal women are. This is hard!! I'll feel angry for absolutely no reason, but I can't deny the fact that I FEEL angry. It's very weird. Hopefully it'll wear off soon ...the package said that the mood swings will only last 2 months at the most. One month down, one to go.